Sunday, May 22, 2005
he may be very happy.. he may giggle arnd.. but wad abt me?.. i'm suffering.. my health.. my studies.. mr career.. everything.. ruined.. gone by the wind... things happen so suddenly.. why must all this happened so fast?.. i wish i cud rewind time.. i hope he's happy now.. with his friends.. i dun mind.. just go ahead.. i may look happy.. i may laugh arnd.. i may joke arnd.. but inside my heart.. no one knows.. no one knows how i suffer.. i just dun want to show him.. i'm sick of living in this world.. i dun deserve.. i dun deserve to be cheated.. i just hate to live in this world.. being cheated.. i know he is happy without me in his life.. i'm a barrier of everything.. i'm a failure.. i just wish i could end my life here.. i always pretended to be happy.. i just dunno when will i be real happy.. i'm suffering.. i wanna die.. he's happy.. very very happy.. wad about me?.. he's gone... gone... my dreams are shattered.. my heart have been broken to tiny pieces which cannot be mend back.. oh god... why must i live in this world?... the world is full of lies... fuck man... i'm useless.. i'm nothing.. nothing.. i have nothing... i know who i am.. i know where i stand... i just wish all the best to him... you will always be the best guy.. take care...
can you feel the beat?
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