Monday, February 28, 2005
he thinks dat i'm testing his patience but actually i did not.. i don't know why i always get scolded... why seh.. i'm really really sad when i got scolded from him.. i just keep quiet when he scold me... sometimes he say some harsh words dat really break my heart but i just keep quiet.. i listen to wad he say.. but sometimes he thinks dat i never listen to him... when we compromise thinks out, we can even get into a fight... i'm really really sad.. when i read his blog, some of it hurt my feelings also... i just dun wanna say to him as we will go into a fight... i surrender when we fight... i just dun wanna fight with him cuz it will just break both of our hearts... sometimes it may also lead to a break-up... i just kept quiet... i sometimes very sad when i saw him crying.. i was the one who always make him cry... i was the one who always make him angry... i feel so sad... it's always me... i'm trying to fix this behavior of mine.... how seh... i need someone to help me... i want him to help me... i just want my loved ones to help me... especially him... but how am i going to make him change this stupid behavior of mine??... i really love him... i cant afford to lose him... i do not want to repeat my same mstakes again & again.... my stupid mistakes are always the problems dat cause us to fight... i just want to say sorry to him.. i'm really sorry darling... will you forgive me for all the things i have done to you?... like... break your heart... scold you... slap you... release my anger to you... being sarcastic with you... being jealous.... will you forgive me??.... will you??...
can you feel the beat?
5:30 PM