Sunday, January 23, 2005
hi.. today i fought with my guy badly.. till both of us cry badly.. we broke up but then we patch up back again.. i was so sad.. the words he said to me really hurt me a lot.. but i just keep quiet.. we shouted really loudly.. i'm still sad.. i just pretend to be happy.. haiyah.. when i go stead with him, i learnt how to be patient.. i just dunno wad to say.. wad am i suppose to do?.. he wants to go to tunnel today but i dont allow.. he physco me like hell wanting me to give him go to tunnel... i dun want him to go.. i dun like ah... i'm so stressed up whenever we fight.. certain things dat i dun like and will make me sad will be said and end up making me cry.. i just simply dunno wad he wants from me.. everytime when he wanted to go to tunnel, he always say dat it's for the last time but end up, he will go again.. when he wants to go again, he will say dat it's for the last time.. i feel so sad when he do dis to me... i just keep quiet.. i just wanna see wad he will do next to me... sometimes, the things dat he do really break my heart, it's just dat i dun want him to know.. all this while, i've been keeping my feelings from him.. i dun want him to know wad i feel... he sometimes dun want to listen to wad i say.. i feel so sad.. sometimes i think, wad have i done wrong.. i'm just sad.. like the phrase" wad goes around, comes around..." hmmm... i wonder wad will my career be... i just dun him to leave me.. i dunno wad will my life be if he was no longer in my life... i think i will become crazy.. i just want him to be safe.. i pray to god dat he will always be safe and secure with who ever he's with..
can you feel the beat?
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