Wednesday, December 22, 2004
we meet again today after their trg and before ny trg starts... i was so sad as he didn't even talk to me.. he was avoiding me... what have i done wrong with him... i wanted to talk to him but he's avoiding me... i was wondering what happened to him... we ate lunch at long john with minime, hisyam, muttaqin, terrence, joleen and one other friend of their's... he never talk to me all the way... i bought my food.. and out of a sudden i burst to tears... i feel so sad that he was avoiding... i eat my food slowly... real slow... i forced myself to finish the food and i did... hisyam and joleen was by my side when i cried... the others left straight away when they finish eatin... at least the others say gd bye to me... but muttaqin did not.. am i pole?... am i invisible?... i ate my medicine... i was so sad and depressed.. came to trg ground with a sad face... no mood to train... hisyam msg me to cheer up.... but i cant... he treats me so well dat time but then out of a sudden, he suddenly treats me likes this... i know dat hisyam and the others are trying to make me happy but i'm too sad... i didn't expect him to do this to me.. i thought he was different... i thought he would make a good friend.. but actually, it was the other way round......
can you feel the beat?
10:45 PM