Saturday, October 09, 2004
halo... good afternoon.. sigh.. i feel so bored.. my fren played the song my happy ending from avril lavign and i started to cry cuz dat song remind me of my loved one.. i feel so sad again.. when i'm stressed, i usually drink.. but not till i'm drunk.. i like to chill on one certain place where the place is so quiet.. quiet places are the best places for me to release my stress and also to cry as i was broken hearted.. now i dunno wad to do.. blog and blog.. dats wad i do.. i was so sad.. i dunno how to explain my sadness cuz it is juz too sad.. last nite, i went out with my frens and drank a few tins of baron.. i was so stressed up till i drank dat much.. i can be crazy at times.. i dunno when will i stop dis habit.. haiyah.. will someone plz stop me.. hahaha.. after drinking, went to farhani's house and slept dere.. when i woke up yesterdae, got a big headache.. i swayed when i walk.. guess i'm drunk.. hahaha.. hahaha.. very funny.. i cant get over him.. kept thinking of him all the time.. evry minute, every second, every hour, everyday... so sad.. wad will i be if this continues on.. hahaha.. i think i'll be dead.. hahaha.. guess wad.. i lost weight.. from 65 to 59kg.. i never lost dat much of weight before.. the last time i lost dat much of weight was when i was sick and also was sad.. my mum say i look thinner dis few days.. she ask wad's bothering me and i said nothing.. she forced me to say but i juz kept quiet... dis few days have been the most saddest days of my life.. sad huh.. try being in my shoes for a few days.. ok.. have to go already.. got to get ready now as i'm going out with frens to watch white chick and to study.... bye for now...
can you feel the beat?
2:05 PM